Journal Entry [002]

2005-07-29T11:03:14Z

I guess I could say something sort of odd happened at school today. During gym class somebody stole my regular clothes out of my locker room cubby. I still don't know who it was, but I think it was planned by more than one person.

I had to go around the rest of the day in my gym clothes. The teachers felt bad for me and told me I could go home and change if I wanted. I told them that it was not a big deal and that this wasn't a reason for me to miss class. It's just clothes, I thought. I don't really care too much what I wear anyways.

At first the kids in my class were laughing a lot. I didn't care though. ~~There was other stuff on my mind~~. I didn't see the point in getting angry. Not over clothes. Which, for some reason, made the kids in my class seem kind of angry. I kept getting dirty looks and I heard one boy say something to a girl about 'that Kouri boy making fools of us all!' I wasn't trying to make a fool of anybody. I was just trying to stay out of everything.

People are sort of confusing...

...People really are confusing.

I am not even sure why I am going to write about this next event but I feel like I have to get it down...I met a girl in the park a few days ago. She was singing. I hadn't ever imagined somebody singing in the middle of a park. I wonder what it must be like to be able to do something like that.

I guess I have to mention this because I can't get her song out of my head. No matter what else I listen to I still hear her voice. Nagisa-sensei probably wouldn't like me thinking about something like this too much. I don't need to give her any more reasons to be upset with me. Then she may put off letting me meet that person even more. That's the only thing I should be thinking about. Just that person.

But I just don't think I will be able to get this song out of my head until I meet Akebi-san again. Not until I hear the end...

Journal Entry [001]

2005-07-24T04:47:32Z

I guess this is the start of my journal. Nagisa-sensei wanted me to begin this so that she can track my progress and so that I can track my own progress, amongst other things. I think it will probably be very boring to other people. I don't usually talk about myself. It really isn't like anything that interesting happens.

Today was a pretty much a regular day at school. Some kids from my class asked me to eat lunch with them. I usually just eat by myself. It was nice that they asked I guess, so I said yes and I ate lunch with them but I think they weren't very happy with me because I didn't say anything during lunch. I'm not sure if they thought I wasn't having a good time or that I didn't like them or something because I was so quiet...it's isn't that...they just, they wouldn't understand anyways, but that's ok. I don't really expect them to. ~~I wonder if that person will...~~

If they ask me to eat lunch with them again I will say yes, but if they don't, it's ok, I understand.

After school I went to read in the library for a while. I go there a lot after classes. I think everyone in my class thinks that I study a lot and then they all wonder why my grades are only average. I don't really study very much. I read the books there, about people going places and doing things. I have to stay here because Nagisa-sensei told me to stay here and then I can find that person and I wouldn't ever disagree with her, but I sort of wonder just a little that maybe if I could search for them outside of Tokyo I might find them. I stopped asking Nagisa-sensei a while ago though, because she always gave me the same answer. It's just been a long time and I still don't know where to look. Nagisa-sensei just pats my head and says we will find each other.

~~I hope so.~~

Whatever happens is fine.

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